| April 13th, 2003
Days gone by without a Speeding
Ticket: 384
1
yes i've got speeding ticket
#6 to my record as of yesterday.. 79 in a 65, which isn't
all that bad.. some interesting facts about my speeding
tickets are: of my 6 i've gotten 2 in Iowa, 2 in Minnesota,
and 2 in Wisconsin.. both Wisconsin tickets were during
the day, whereas both Iowan and Minnesotan tickets were
during the night... Wisconsin tickets are expensive too...
$100 for only speeding.. Minnesota is around $75-80, and
Iowa is cheap at $35-40...
but oh well... there's a couple
upcoming Events that i wish to attend that seem easily attendable
... Max Graham is spinning at Visions, Spundae this coming
weekend, Armin van Buuren is spinning at Visions, Spundae
first weekend of May, and Tiesto is spinning at House of
Blues, Spundae last weekend of May... Tiesto may be difficult
though, seeing how i'd need to start from Minneapolis, not
Platteville...
so since i'm in some kind of
funk today, and i think i know why... i kept myself busy
redoing tihs page of Photography....
although i should probably split up the images, instead
of putting them ALL together... perhaps later in the week
i'll have the other Photography page done as well... i find
it interesting how the more recent pictures are alot more
colorful than ones further on down the line...
anyways... i don't feel so
good .... ..sigh
later that evening..
sigh... i did the other photography
page, enough of it anyways... and i feel even worse now...
i don't know what i'm going to do... and i think knowing
what i should do is what hurts the most...
-- Dyre |
|
| April 10th, 2003
ha, i say to all of you...
all of you who thought that any amount of schoolwork that
had to be done was more important than last night, because
you ALL missed out.. every last one of you missed out on
one of the best nights the quest has ever had... Paul Van
Dyk kept the beat going all night long, and the Quest was
packed, not only packed for a weeknight, but for any event..
here are some attempts at pictures from the event...
it was all worth the 10 total
hour drive to minneapolis and back ... on the way i listened
to my newly acquired Local DJ cd that were available at
the quest... i listened to some Phenix M and Kid Icarus..
i still need to find Phenix M's first mix cd w/ Starry-eyed
Surprise on it.. although if i were him, i wouldn't make
any more of them either ^_^..
Before Josh and I, took off
to the quest we also went and saw The Cowboy Bebop movie
playing at a theatre near us... very action based, compared
against the series on a whole.. but, most of you have already
seen it on a computer near you.. The english dub is not
bad at all, much like the series...except for one annoying
character who sounded like the voice actor of Winnie the
Pooh did his voice.. what the hell ?? ..
anywho, i am quite tired from
the last 32 hrs. so i am going to rest... i'll eventually
get to making some kind of photography page...
-- Dyre |
|
| April 7th, 2003
my head is swimming... i find
it weird how just one solitary pint of Smirnoff makes my
brain loose its consistancy...
and thanks to the modern marvel of CD technology my head
feels every beat of BT as i listen to his R&R cd over
and over again ... and love every second of it... beautiful
fucking music... Sunblind rocks my world... Smartbomb adds
complexity... Fibonachi Sequence adds progression... Hybrid's
Mix of Godspeed adds much complexity as well as randomality...
Dreaming adds ambience, Blue Skies adds melody.. Timo Maas'
mix of Never Gonna Come Back adds beat.. and the rest adds
a subtle run off into the night... such a masterfull work...
and mixed beautifully... but i degress...
and speaking of photos...
gelicia and I are doing a Photo Scavenger Hunt, that is
open to anyone who has a camera of some kind...
-- Dyre |
|
| April 3rd, 2003
i feel old... this whole class
registration thing has got me in some kind of mood.. because
of the novice of my advisor i took it upon myself to figure
out what the hell i need to do with this school... and i
made a big list of all that
i need to do to graduate with a Computer Science (CT) Major,
Mathematics Major, and an International Studies (Japanese)
Minor... and then this afternoon i went through filling
in the dates of when i should probably take all these classes..
and it looks like my graduation Date is December of 2006...
i'll be fucking 27 when i
get out of this college, when new freshman that year will
be 9 fucking years younger than me ... 9 YEARS !! !... i'll
be 50% older than them... and people graduating at the same
time as me, will be 5 years younger than me... thats so
damn depressing... i think my mind is far too wrapped up
into this..
and why the hell do i even
care about graduating... ugh.. the primary reason for me
going back to school was so i didn't have to get on with
my life... am i now regretting that for some reason ??..
ARHAGhgg.. i don't know what i'm doing anymore...
later that evening...
wow.. i'm such an obsessive compulsive person.. who knew...
i went through all my class AGAIN and now counted up all
the credits i need for each semester and what not, and now
my estimated graduation Date is back to May of 2006.. maybe
i could help myself out further by taking some summer classes
somehow.. like some generals at the University of Minnesota
Minneapolis during summer or something...
currently my remaining 6 semesters
are pretty heavy.. except for the semester when i study
abroad, that'll be very easy comparitively... anyways, i
think i'm still going nuts over this so i'm going to bed,
while listening to the music stylings of BT to ease my woes..
-- Dyre |
|
| April 1st, 2003
merry christmas.. ha... april
fools.. i really had you fooled didn't i ... what a stupid
holiday...
whee... i'm in the state of
intoxication where stuff is kinda funny, any kind of tedious
work sucks, and music is best listened to by closing your
eyes and flailing your arms in the air in sync with, while
people you can't see (because your eyes are closed) gawk
and stare.. all this can be yours too after eating this
for dinner... gelicia says this is the most disgusting attempt
at cooking she's ever seen... i think the food speaks for
itself...
if i wasn't in such a mood
i'd probably convert over my Final Fantasy X-2 and Zelda:
Takt no Wind impressions off the spamm site to my page here..
maybe tomorrow or later or never or tomorrow...
-- Dyre |
|
| March 31st, 2003
Attention to all German Fucks
who continue to post on my guestbook... STOP.. or i will
continue to call you German Fucks and other stuff that i
think is funny... you european underlings post at least
2 messages a day within a 1/2 hour of each other... is this
your daily hobby?.. to post your advertisements on a very
unvisited website.. christ.. most of the people that read
this website would never dream of visiting your back-water
failure of a country... eat your chocolate, drink your beer,
create new sexual deviant porno that continues to push the
limit of human tolerance, and listen to your shitty David
Hasselhof music... stay the fuck off my guest-book... if
you REALLY do like my website, how about sending me a personalized
email or something of that nature...
ugh... i really don't know
how all this started.. but i'm pretty damn sure i can narrow
the culprit down to at least 10 people i know... random
acts like never are truly 'random'.. oh well... like it
really matters...
oh by the way... still no new
comics... but i've been assigned my Art History midterm
which is a paper of the same length and accord of my previous
Art History Final which you
all have better read by now... this semester i must write
2 of these mammoth sized papers, instead of the one, which
took me 15 hrs. to write... i should probably start it tomorrow...
nah.. maybe not...
Edit: ugh.. i can't believe
how terrible looking my page is for my Art History Final...
i'll fix that soon enough...
-- Dyre |
|
| March 29th, 2003
the recollection of absence..
the fear of rejection... the sight of temptation.. the thought
of another day... and the presence of life, love, and art....
time continues, life continues... regretting what you have
done, or what you will do is none of your concern... what
happens in your life is simply what happens... people act
of their own accord, and watch out for themselves... so
what if you screw yourself over... your actions may hurt
you, but the burden dealt to society is usually just as
great, if not greater...
all is lost with the reocurrence
of memory and the resurfacing of the past... the cycle of
attitude will repeat again and again... things may change,
but only for a period of time, before the cause is removed,
and fucking normality returns to its state... all may be
lost and nothing will be learned...
my respect and admiration for
sir, Samuel Keith continuously grows with every printed
word i read of his... his artistic creativity and shortcomings
closely mimic those of my own... my 'artistic' shortcomings
are FAR greater than his, of course... all of his work stems
from his own emotional sadness that he felt at times during
his life, much like most of the crap i make on this website...
the difference is that he recalls his past to write his
work, whereas i use the emotions i have at this time and
create stuff now, rather than later when i feel that i'd
forget most of it...
I find it very interesting
and admirable that after creating his most well-Known work,
The Maxx, he basically shunned himself from the comic making
community because in his mind, he knew that after creating
such a story of great proportions and angles, anything afterward
would only lay in the shadows... even his 'current' comic,
Zero Girl is only produced in small iterations compared
to The Maxx, which when produced had no set ending issue
number... Zero Girl has ended at the moment, again.. after
two 5-issue series.. and still keeps the same purity and
truth of emotions as his previous work...
Sam Keith could be thinking
that if he did created something new on as large a scale
as The Maxx that it would be his last work... he could be
saving himself for that.. he may not want to make something
that overpowers The Maxx either... or maybe he's waiting
long enough for The Maxx to be part of history and leave
the contemporary ground, so that a new monumental story
will be part of a new era of comics, or story.... or something
like that...
or i could just be completely
wrong because i don't really know anything about comic books,
nor anything about contemporary comic book history, or really
anything about Sam Keith beyond what i've read in his comics....
so with that in mind, how actually valid are all these accusations
and thoughts of Sam Keith ?... hmmm....
-- Dyre |
|
| March 28th, 2003
wow... it seemed just like
yesterday, when i actually updated my website at on a semi-regular
basis... but then spring break happened, which falls into
my *other category for updates... but falling into spring
break was more of an experience anyways... i did what any
normal person does during spring break, go home and work...
and that i did... although my week was filled with many
discoveries and events, than rather just the normal... i
found some new shops, i played much DDR Extreme, and i listened
to alot of new music, including Stu's tracks...
a man who once heard saying,
"one cannot live life and observe it, simutaniously"..
the retort goes something like this, "i don't entirely
agree, which is to say i don't exactly disagree"...
but in this case, the man is correct, The presence of my
real home once again robs my creative ambient will... although
a number of other reasons play into this submission, and
the emergance of some social deviation....
did take some precious work
time to write down thoughts of my current situation and
place, though... i'll get to those soon enough... after
these 14 days of this uncreative rut, i may be turning around
enough to do something about it...
"and the dame came, when
the risk to remain closed in a bud, became more painful
than the risk it took to blossom" - Sam Keith, The
Maxx... i can never seem to escape the pressure of this
quote... although in my current the pressure is being applied
by her, instead of the burden of her not knowing... some
things are better off not said... truth can be painful,
especially when its something you'd never know otherwise...
the whole situation truly fascinates
me... how the unKnown turns to truth, and how truth anchors
reality, yet as the archor remains still, reality is still
distorted, changed, thought and rethought, until truth is
questioned so many times, it is no longer believable...
after a while, i'll begin testing truth.. bending it.. until
it breaks, and then i've lost... again...
truth, normality, and prediction
vary so much.. when the time comes... all will come crashing
down on me, and everything will change... again...
Paul Van Dyk's track: Forbidden
Fruit provides an ambient sound that closely reflects my
own situation... in posession of something so pure, so magnificient...
yet never being able to have it... whether it be life, or
fate that prevents you of such happiness, this is how it
is...
-- Dyre |
|
| March 13th, 2003
i fixed those coding ineffiiency,
not that you can tell or anything... i also did tried to
come up a comic encompassing ideas that have been floating
around my head lately and after i tried to do so, i ended
up tearing up my drawings and ideas i was going to use for
it because nothing seemed to work.. so i went home and desided
to play some DDR... after 50 minutes, i sat down to rest
for a second and completed passed out on the spot... weird..
to continue.. after i woke
up a little, i put in a Moby cd to doze off to... and came
up with something to replace my shitty comic 15 with...
ya know.. there's a certain
point when you're feeling bad about yourself, that all of
Moby's music just seems to make complete sense.. you seem
to feel what he must have felt as he wrote the songs, and
then you can apply them to your own life, provided they
do apply... i'd upload the tracks so you could listen to
them, but i don't have the webspace required to do so...
-- Dyre |
|
| March 11th, 2003
ok, here's the way i see it
- everyone has a built in sense to determine who is the
"right match" for them, but everyone is "desperate"
for a companion, so they start dating people that they know
are only supposed to be their really good friends - they
don't want to be patient and wait for the "one"
- and this anxiousness causes many problems
i think its the root of almost
all of the depression that exists - i see it will so many
of my friends - and i see it in the millions of people in
the world who are "depressed" or "lonely"
or sad
-- Glitch Enzo |
|
| March 11th, 2003
i'd almost consider these past
3 hrs. a waste of fucking time... but i guess it'll pay
off in the end.. maybe.. i've recoded this site to be more
efficient.. of course, after completing this, i found an
even more efficient way to do it.. but fuck starting over..
this is efficient enough..
Todays comic was surprisingly
fun to draw.. the little 'inner child' images always brought
a little smile to my face... i actually ended up with one
too many after thinking the entire comic through and drawing
whatever came to mind...
 
such cute little drawings...
all to induce the illusion of happiness in an otherwise
unhappy situation.. all things come to an end... hopefully
it'll only be suspended... ugh.. i wish i would have wrote
that in the comic... i should really rewrite it...
speaking of inaccuracies...
what we do with our weekends isn't actually child's play..
this past weekend, as we've spent our other weekends, we
drank.. i had a brain hemerage.. which looks something like
this .... this picture actually
makes it look like a brain hemerage too, which is kinda
funny because when we were pouring them they looked nothing
like it... now.. just to juxtapose, look at my comic for
today and vast in its cuteness... and then click on the
link and see the reality of
our 'play' time.. ^_^...
-- Dyre |
|
|
|
